new position at Panera

Last week I talked to my manager about changing departments. so the next day I was trained for the job and on my own for the next 2 days. although very tired and in pain I got through it. I called today to find out what was going on with my job for this week because nothing had been said. I was told I got the spot and they are going to change that departments scheduling for me. as of this week I work Wednesday and Thursday 11:00am- 9:30 pm in my old department then I'm off friday so I can sleep then saturday and Sunday I work 5pm-3:30am then I'm off for 2 days! this will give me better pay and I'm not in the same department that I've been in for 3 years!! I'm really happy about that because my old job was to hard on my body. I still work for the same company but different area. All it took was going in and explaining to my manager that my current area wasn't healthy for me any longer and I wanted a that spot because it would be better for me and the company in the long run. I try not to advance just because I have lupus but it did help because it was ether I get put somewhere else or I would have to be quitting and I don't like to quit. although I work in the cooler that really isn't good for me eather it's the better of the two. so if any one else feels stuck remember "if you don't like it change it".

it's not permanent at this time but eventually will be. it's a start in the right direction and I'm moving forward.

-Matthew Sapp-

Know when to say no

Today was busy with having a meeting at Borders bookstore with my financial advisor then spending time with my future wife then we both went to the church to work the first day of Vacation Bible School. I'm very tired and sore right now. Along with many other people I have a problem with saying no. Its just not in my nature to say no to people when stuff needs done but I'm learning that as much as I don't want to I need to take things slower. I'm not really a workaholic or any thing because I work 4 10 hour days a week and thats enough for me but as soon as someone asked if I can do something its like I cant resist. I always want to get more done and cram more in to a day but its just becoming harder because I don't want to risk taking my self out for days at a time by over doing it. Some times having lupus makes me thing of Scruges partner in the Christmas story. He had to drag that chain around every where he went and some times it does feel like that. I don't know if any one else understands what I'm talking about but thats just what was on my mind tonight.

How productive is your passion?

Every one is passionate about something in there life. Some about sports such as football, basket ball, soccer , ect. Other people are in to books and movies or or many other things. There is nothing wrong with any of that. But is any of it productive. Some people can do well in there sports but theres very few of them and some that can read and become educated and make them selves better. Although what you do every second does not dramatically effect the course of your life; what you put the most in to can determine how things with play out for you. Having lupus has taught me not only to prioritize my life but that I need to push forward and do better because I cant make it doing physical labor. I want to do better for my self then that and keep pushing on. My passion is to succeed in doing something big. What is yours?